Dear Kennedy, an open letter to my daughter.

Dear Kennedy,

I’m writing this letter to you during your nap time. I thought it would be fun to have something like this to look back on. But dang, its hard! Every time I start to compile thoughts I get so emotional! Not sure if its my pregnancy hormones, or just me getting emotional thinking about our life together. Probably a little bit of both I suppose. I’m sure it doesn’t help that I ended up looking through your baby pictures right before I started writing this..

This will be our last Mother’s Day together, just you and I.  && Knowing that these will be our last days together has me going back and forth through so many thoughts and emotions. You are the first person to make me a mommy, and for that you will always be so special to me. As cliche as it sounds, you have changed my life. You have allowed me to make mistakes while navigating motherhood, and have shown me nothing less than unconditional love even on my worst days. Because of you I am a more patient person, a more kind person, and just an all around better person. I am so thankful that God chose me to be your mom. You have saved me in more ways than you will ever know. && you are the reason that I can now be confident in who I am as a Mother as we welcome your little sister into our life.

One of the things I love most about you, is how sill you are! This is not something that comes naturally to me. It might sound weird, but I appreciate that you can push me outside of my comfort zone this way, and help me not take myself too seriously. I love that you love makeup, sprinkles (glitter), the color pink and so many other “girly” things. While, still never hesitating to go on an adventure with your Dad, or hold a reptile at a friends birthday party. I love, love, love the way your little nose scrunches up when you know you’re being funny. I love how kind you are, and that you aren’t afraid to share your kindness with others. You’re only three, and everyday before you leave school you give all of your friends a hug. You are all of the good parts of your daddy and I, mixed with a little bit of sass and I wouldn’t have you any other way. I am so proud of you and the little lady that you are becoming. I love you so much.

I am so EXCITED to watch you be a big sister especially since I know how excited you are! I know that you are going to be amazing at it! I just want you to know that you will always be so special to me. To think that bringing a baby into our home would cause you any pain makes my heart so sad. This season of life is going to be an adjustment period for us all. And I know that if we stick together and have a little bit of patience, we will make it through just fine. Heck, we will be more than fine. Our little family is filled with so much love for each other. It is something that your Daddy and I work very hard at, and are very proud of. I can’t wait for my two girls to meet each other. I can’t wait to watch our family grow together!

I love you so much baby girl,

I hope you’re having the sweetest dreams.

Love,

Momma ❤

 

 

Life/ 3rd Trimester Update

Well hello there! Long time no Blog! I am super excited to share that I am going to start back at the blogging game. : ) As some of you may know I am pregnant with our second little girl, our official due date is May 15th! We are over the moon… and a little nervous to welcome a new baby into our life. Kennedy is VERY excited to be a big sister! She keeps asking me “Momma! When is that baby coming out of your belly,”! When we first found out we were expecting Kennedy explained to us that she had a baby in her belly too, the size of a watermelon! Lol!

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This pregnancy has not been an easy one. During the first trimester I was nauseas ALL. THE. TIME. Plus, I was dealing with some personal stuff that was pretty emotional, especially for someone who’s hormones were all over the place. During the second trimester I had a surge of energy! I was working out, keeping up with the house, and still able to Keep up with Kennedy, for the most part. I felt like I was kicking ass and taking names!  From then on out i thought this pregnancy was going to be a breeze. That pipe dream came crashing down at about 26 weeks. Instead, I was getting my ass kicked. Hadley has been hanging out pretty low my entire pregnancy. Which was Really putting pressure on my pelvic region. Lucky me! I ended up with “lightening crotch” pains for weeks. Working eight hours on my feet was really starting to take a toll on my body. I would get home from work and would need Kenny to help me  out of my car. Waking up in the morning was a joke, I could barely walk. I’m not sure if I’m just getting used to it or what, but my pregnancy symptoms don’t seem to be as bad these last few weeks. It is so crazy to me how different each pregnancy can be! I knew that I had an easy pregnancy with Kennedy. Having such a different experience the second time around definitely makes me appreciate it so much more.. lol.

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With all of the excitement does come a little bit of anixety. I’ve been keeping pretty busy during this pregnancy. It is not often that my mind finds time to wander. With our due date rapidly approaching, and a little more time off of work. I’ve been finding myself letting those anxious thoughts creep in. When Kennedy was born I had a really hard time feeling secure in my roll as a mom. I was unsure of everything I was doing! Our breastfeeding journey did not go well, which just added to the insecurities I was already feeling. Im worried that having a new baby will bring these insecurities and all of the other emotions that go along with them flooding back.  This time it could not only  have an affect on the baby, but Kennedy too. It has been SO long since we have been around a little baby! It kind of feels like we are doing it all over again. I have so many questions, and have been leaning on my mom friends for support Trying to make myself feel more prepared for this next phase in life. 

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Our life is obviously going to change. I’m just hoping that I will be able to give myself ALOT more grace this time around. Something I’ve been trying to work on in general is embracing the chaos of our life. It’s messy and crazy, but oh so beautiful.. why try to force it to be anything else? Besides, even if things do get a little crazy I know everything will work out. I can’t wait to take you all on this new adventure with us!

Xoxo

Brittney

Recipe: Apple Pie Over Night Oats

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I don’t know about you, but I am always rushing around and running behind  more times than not in the morning. This makes in nearly impossible for me to eat breakfast at home. I always end up buying something at work. Not only have i been trying to eat better, but I’ve also been trying to save money where i can. So, I started to make this SUPER and quick over night oats recipe. I found this delicious recipe while roaming Pinterest sometime last year. I have been LOVING it! This recipe has such delicious fall flavors. Especially, if you’re not the biggest fan of pumpkin spice everything, like me. Plus, it is super convenient  to eat on the go.

Ingredients:

1 Medium Sized Apple

1/2 Cup Almond Milk, Unsweetened

1/2 Cup Old Fashion Oats

1 Tbsp Pure Maple Syrup

1/4 Tsp Ground Cinnamon

1/8 Tsp Ground Nutmeg

1/8 Tsp Sea Salt

1/2 Tsp Pure Vanilla Extract

1 Tbsp Chia Seeds

1/4 Cup Raw Walnuts

 

Directions:

1. Combine the oats, almond milk, chia seeds, syrup, cinnamon, nutmeg, vanilla extract,  and sea salt. Stir together until incorporated.

2. Layer apples and walnuts on top.

3. Place the ingredients in a sealable  jar, such as a mason jar. I’ve used Tupperware and it has worked fine as well.

4. Place in the fridge overnight, or for at least 6 hours

5. Then, Voila! You have a delicious breakfast ready to go!

Thanks for stopping in guys

Xoxo Brit

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If you want to see the original recipe click Here

Life/ Blog UPDATE

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We got a house everybody! After months, and months of searching and offering we finally bought our first home! We were able to move in the first week of August. Luckily, Kenny and I both had a few weeks off of work so we were able to get a lot of moving done then. So technically we are “moved in” all though we still have a lot of minor details to finish up. There are pretty much zero decorations on the walls. I want to have a more focused vision as far as decor for the house goes, compared to what I had up in our apartment. So its taking me a little bit to get her everything together.

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Kenny and I just recently celebrated 2 years of marriage! I can’t lie, year two was a little bit harder for me than the first year. But, I’m pretty sure that I have heard that is common? Not sure? We for defintely learned some lessons, and I am so happy that our marriage is rooted in communication and friendship. He is the yin to my yang. The jelly to my peanut butter. I couldn’t have asked for anyone better to share this cray cray ride with.

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Kennedy update: my not so baby, baby is doing pretty awesome. About two months ago she REALLY started taking off with the whole talking thing. Now, she pretty much talks nonstop. She is now able to recognize colors and shapes! We are struggling a little bit with the whole potty training thing. She knows when she has to go potty, but is just not loving the idea of sitting on the big girl potty. However, she does REALLY love her new mini mouse big girl undies momma bought her! She will be turning 2 in a few short months. I’m sure you will hear this a million times from now until then, but I really think two is worse than ONE!! At least when they turn one they are still kind of babies. At two, she is a full blown little kid! Insert all of the tears here

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Struggling. Sooooo I’m not gonna lie to you guys. Even though it is hard to say out loud, and share with you here: I have been STRUGGLING. My anxiety has been taking over lately and I’m just really having a hard time. Some weeks are better than others, but overall I’m just feeling a little lost. This has a large part to do with my absence here on the blog. There are so many things that I want to do and get done, and there is just not enough time in the day. So I am left constantly feeling like I haven’t accomplished anything, much less to the completion of my liking. I feel like I somehow need to focus my life, but am lost as to how.

Time is a huge source of my anxiety. I feel like there is never enough time in the day to get things done. Never enough time to spend with my family. Always too much time at work. Too much time trying to push past the mental wall that I build up for myself over, and over again. It’s a vicious cycle this anxiety, one that I wouldn’t wish on my worst enemy. I get so frustrated with myself when I can’t push past, and I can’t break through. I’m angry that I can’t describe the suffocating feeling that comes over me to my loved ones so they can better understand me.

With that being said, I really want to focus on the things in life that make me happy. The things that are helping me, instead of hurting me. I can’t be a good wife, mom, friend, sister if I am not my best self. I owe it to myself and to my people to take care of me.

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Down to blog business. My one year blogaversary was not too long ago. I have learned so much from my first year of blogging! First of all, it is MUCH, MUCH harder than it looks. Finding the time to create content that matters is a true task, and I commend the “big bloggers” out there. They are the real MVPs guys. With that being said, I spent a lot of the last year blogging comparing myself to those other bloggers, and trying to be like them. Which in all honestly, made blogging less fun, and less inspiring for me.

For my second year of blogging I want to do a better job of just being me. Writing about things that matter to me, and that spark my interest. I want to stop playing the comparison game with all of the other bloggers, and even mommas on Insta and other social media platforms. I want to use my blog for its original intention. To share my story: the good days, and the bad days. I originally started my blog as a place for other moms to turn to and find a sense of non judgement and friendship. To read a post with my struggles and not feel so alone, because that’s what reading other blogs did for me. I want to use my blog to grow as a blogger, a person, and a momma. Long term, I would love to create a sense of community with my readers like so many of the great bloggers that I follow.

* Side Note: Now that we have a home, I would love to incorporate home decor and any home projects that we do! I just think it would be fun to share with you guys.  What do you think?

Thank you for supporting me!

Talk soon

Brit

Tulip Festival!

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We took our first family road trip a few days ago! Which since Kennedy has been born, has pretty much been my worst nightmare. There are SO, SO many thing that could go wrong. And of course, loss of control and the chaos that I have created in my mind feeds right into my anxiety. The two greatest “fears” if you will, were the car ride and sleeping through the night. The longest car ride Kennedy has experienced is about 45 minutes and recently, she has started fighting us when it comes time to get into her car seat. K is also a TERRIBLE sleeper! So, I knew that there was a huge possibility that she would not be able to fall asleep in a strange hotel.

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Mother’s Day Giveaway!!

Mother’s Day is coming early for one lucky mama! I have teamed up with some amazing shops and bloggers to give one lucky mama all of this!

Born To Be Mama tee – the exclusive tee from Five Shop

The signature Transport Tote from Madewell

$50 Shop Credit to Jays+Jewels

Lipsense starter kit – by Lushleelips

Pair of leather earrings from Nickel and Suede

Being a Mom is My Jam thermal bottle from Premium Wine Bag Co

 GIVEAWAY

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