We got a house everybody! After months, and months of searching and offering we finally bought our first home! We were able to move in the first week of August. Luckily, Kenny and I both had a few weeks off of work so we were able to get a lot of moving done then. So technically we are “moved in” all though we still have a lot of minor details to finish up. There are pretty much zero decorations on the walls. I want to have a more focused vision as far as decor for the house goes, compared to what I had up in our apartment. So its taking me a little bit to get her everything together.
Kenny and I just recently celebrated 2 years of marriage! I can’t lie, year two was a little bit harder for me than the first year. But, I’m pretty sure that I have heard that is common? Not sure? We for defintely learned some lessons, and I am so happy that our marriage is rooted in communication and friendship. He is the yin to my yang. The jelly to my peanut butter. I couldn’t have asked for anyone better to share this cray cray ride with.
Kennedy update: my not so baby, baby is doing pretty awesome. About two months ago she REALLY started taking off with the whole talking thing. Now, she pretty much talks nonstop. She is now able to recognize colors and shapes! We are struggling a little bit with the whole potty training thing. She knows when she has to go potty, but is just not loving the idea of sitting on the big girl potty. However, she does REALLY love her new mini mouse big girl undies momma bought her! She will be turning 2 in a few short months. I’m sure you will hear this a million times from now until then, but I really think two is worse than ONE!! At least when they turn one they are still kind of babies. At two, she is a full blown little kid! Insert all of the tears here
Struggling. Sooooo I’m not gonna lie to you guys. Even though it is hard to say out loud, and share with you here: I have been STRUGGLING. My anxiety has been taking over lately and I’m just really having a hard time. Some weeks are better than others, but overall I’m just feeling a little lost. This has a large part to do with my absence here on the blog. There are so many things that I want to do and get done, and there is just not enough time in the day. So I am left constantly feeling like I haven’t accomplished anything, much less to the completion of my liking. I feel like I somehow need to focus my life, but am lost as to how.
Time is a huge source of my anxiety. I feel like there is never enough time in the day to get things done. Never enough time to spend with my family. Always too much time at work. Too much time trying to push past the mental wall that I build up for myself over, and over again. It’s a vicious cycle this anxiety, one that I wouldn’t wish on my worst enemy. I get so frustrated with myself when I can’t push past, and I can’t break through. I’m angry that I can’t describe the suffocating feeling that comes over me to my loved ones so they can better understand me.
With that being said, I really want to focus on the things in life that make me happy. The things that are helping me, instead of hurting me. I can’t be a good wife, mom, friend, sister if I am not my best self. I owe it to myself and to my people to take care of me.
Down to blog business. My one year blogaversary was not too long ago. I have learned so much from my first year of blogging! First of all, it is MUCH, MUCH harder than it looks. Finding the time to create content that matters is a true task, and I commend the “big bloggers” out there. They are the real MVPs guys. With that being said, I spent a lot of the last year blogging comparing myself to those other bloggers, and trying to be like them. Which in all honestly, made blogging less fun, and less inspiring for me.
For my second year of blogging I want to do a better job of just being me. Writing about things that matter to me, and that spark my interest. I want to stop playing the comparison game with all of the other bloggers, and even mommas on Insta and other social media platforms. I want to use my blog for its original intention. To share my story: the good days, and the bad days. I originally started my blog as a place for other moms to turn to and find a sense of non judgement and friendship. To read a post with my struggles and not feel so alone, because that’s what reading other blogs did for me. I want to use my blog to grow as a blogger, a person, and a momma. Long term, I would love to create a sense of community with my readers like so many of the great bloggers that I follow.
* Side Note: Now that we have a home, I would love to incorporate home decor and any home projects that we do! I just think it would be fun to share with you guys. What do you think?
Thank you for supporting me!