I’m writing this letter to you during your nap time. I thought it would be fun to have something like this to look back on. But dang, its hard! Every time I start to compile thoughts I get so emotional! Not sure if its my pregnancy hormones, or just me getting emotional thinking about our life together. Probably a little bit of both I suppose. I’m sure it doesn’t help that I ended up looking through your baby pictures right before I started writing this..
This will be our last Mother’s Day together, just you and I. && Knowing that these will be our last days together has me going back and forth through so many thoughts and emotions. You are the first person to make me a mommy, and for that you will always be so special to me. As cliche as it sounds, you have changed my life. You have allowed me to make mistakes while navigating motherhood, and have shown me nothing less than unconditional love even on my worst days. Because of you I am a more patient person, a more kind person, and just an all around better person. I am so thankful that God chose me to be your mom. You have saved me in more ways than you will ever know. && you are the reason that I can now be confident in who I am as a Mother as we welcome your little sister into our life.
One of the things I love most about you, is how sill you are! This is not something that comes naturally to me. It might sound weird, but I appreciate that you can push me outside of my comfort zone this way, and help me not take myself too seriously. I love that you love makeup, sprinkles (glitter), the color pink and so many other “girly” things. While, still never hesitating to go on an adventure with your Dad, or hold a reptile at a friends birthday party. I love, love, love the way your little nose scrunches up when you know you’re being funny. I love how kind you are, and that you aren’t afraid to share your kindness with others. You’re only three, and everyday before you leave school you give all of your friends a hug. You are all of the good parts of your daddy and I, mixed with a little bit of sass and I wouldn’t have you any other way. I am so proud of you and the little lady that you are becoming. I love you so much.
I am so EXCITED to watch you be a big sister especially since I know how excited you are! I know that you are going to be amazing at it! I just want you to know that you will always be so special to me. To think that bringing a baby into our home would cause you any pain makes my heart so sad. This season of life is going to be an adjustment period for us all. And I know that if we stick together and have a little bit of patience, we will make it through just fine. Heck, we will be more than fine. Our little family is filled with so much love for each other. It is something that your Daddy and I work very hard at, and are very proud of. I can’t wait for my two girls to meet each other. I can’t wait to watch our family grow together!
I love you so much baby girl,
I hope you’re having the sweetest dreams.